It’s been a bit of a weepy week here at Casa Catastrophe, but I’m not unhappy about it.
Nor unhappy at all really.
Some things are worth a wee weep, and a few of those things happened, as they will do in life.
The emotion comes, the tears come, the emotion passes and the tear dry up… and back to the daily routine.
I’ve written on the blog before that I’ve been taking Cipramil for a few years.
I didn’t get PND after the twins were born. But when they were mid–terrible twos…. and we were renovating…. and the Intn’l Man of Mystery started working in Yemen… and… and….
(Cue immediate rise in his life insurance cover for all of the above reasons.)
Back then, I’d been quite proud of myself as I managed to get good treatment whilst on the slippery slope rather than when smashed up and desperate down at the bottom of the big, black pit which lies at the bottom of that slippery slope.
As life got easier I dropped the dose, and then life got easier and easier and it felt like I was getting a bit too cheery, if you know what I mean. A bit manic.
So then I was taking half a tab and then half every second day: slowly, slowly, dropping, dropping over weeks and months.
Stopped completely about three weeks ago.
And I do really feel quite different, more than I expected.
And a bit of a weep in itself ain’t a problem. It’s just when it lasts ALL DAY and when I really can’t stop that I need to worry.
Eons ago, a counsellor told me that a real, present, current emotion would come in hard, and then leave quite quickly. The emotions that stayed stuck in my stomach were about the past and not the present.
Can you relate to that?
I certainly could.
People talk a lot about going onto medication and Benison, Cathy and I wrote a lot about it.
There’s less discussion on why and when and how to stop taking them.
I’d love to ask you to share if you’ve had this experience.
How did it go? What’s your advice?
This is a huge topic. There’s so much more to say on laughter, therapy, and especially on antidepressants and sex!
But I’ll zip it here for today and hope you can share your experiences with myself and others.
Please do comment or email me anonymously or pseudonymously if you prefer.
If you see me having a wee weepy moment this week, pass me a hankie would you?
And lets have a hug.
Take it easy